if i asked you to run away with me would you?

i want to get outta albury but i dont wanta go by myslef come with me..

:)
i wish i could feel his hands keeping me safe agian.
i wish for alot.. haha. random!
i gunna stop wishing and go out and get you :) haha

if you read this

i want you to know i cant stop thinking about you, and i wish you didnt leave so that i could of told you that your awesome, and i also wish you would text me. so i could tell you yhat i liked you and not him...


mm school tomoz. i am going crazy. what do i said to you.

perfect..

today i meet the perfect stanger. he was cute. and really nice. pretty much made my day. haha
yeah
now i cant remba his name.
hate it then that happens. i hope i see him agian... he was pretty, and cuute.

oh and i also love nizzo fitzy michelle cause they were kool todayy
i miss siobhan and jackie and kortnne and zade :(

i just dont understand.
i am great, i was happy with who i was. i knew what i wanted.
but now i feel like a human runing a horses race, everyone is always so quick to put me down for who i was, or what i have become. everyone always asking for something. i am sick of leading in a world which is full of leaders which wont listen or even try to. i am like a fish swimming a race with a shark and i cant win, between my jobs and school i dont even no where i fit anymore. i was a star i new that i could be anything i just needed to want it. but now i am fallen star with no hope to rise because of the belief that i wil never be good enough for you for them. i wanted to help people now i cant even be bothered to see anyones faces. i am the only one who can reach for the stars and become one. but i ask myself whats the point anymore, i am not even believing in myself anymore let only the power of others.
what pushed me to the point, where i choose to fit in and not stand out for who i am. who i am now, where had gabrielle catherine dean gone, cause i feel as if she not here anymore... i am lost with out ny direction...

:) i love

i love the feeling of nothing. i love hanging upside down. i love when your feet cant toouch the groud. i love that i cry when i laught. i love alot things

lets get lost toggetter

i dont understand this now.... lets get lost toggeter, until we find whatever were looking for.


this song explains my feeling, i feel music does it better then words some times


We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whenthe storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

... :) perfect.

the road of life,

everyone needs to belong.
belong to a place
belong to a person
belong to a group
or they belong to themselfs
if you want to belong turely you must find which one of these that you belong to
and if its not here or now, then go find where you belong because in the end we all have to belong to something.
or our journey is pointless, without cause, without direaction.
what's the point of the road. If theres nothing to follow.?
to belong is to follow a road with direaction and truely believe thats where you should be at this point in time. weather that is to
belong to a place
belong to person
belong to group
or to belong to yourself as a person.
i truely believe that i belong to myself and this is my road and i have direaction because of this. where do you belong? do you need to find this belonging to have direaction? this is my qestion to you.

yeah thanks bestfriend.

i think to my self what the point ??
the point is you can pull me under, but ill still be breathing. you cant hold me back dont now. ill face this bullshit. and ill come out of it just fine. because i am stronger then you seem to think. i dont need anyone. because people always leave. this is what makes me strong. i only relised this today. after everything thats happen in my life i no now those who are alone in this world are the stongist with nothing to hold them back. yeah sure ill miss you. but that the price you pay for beening a heartless mole. who pushed me to this point in need. and to face this shit on my own to feet, now i thank you for that. cause i am now the strongist i have ever been. so bring it all bitches, throw everything you got at me, hit me when i am down cause we both no ill just keep getting back up and facing all of you alone and strong which doesnt mean it will be easy but aleast i no i never gunna leave myself or stab my self in the back so fuck you and your friend ships. ..

: )

.. ever had that song you automacitaly love?? that you cant stop listening to? the one which is always on replay?? well i have one of those songs at the moment.. i can feel ya heart beat. :) haha its amazing.. listen to it...

6,883,251,775

6,883,251,775 people in the world and all i need is a few.
these people are the reason i hope. they keep strong and help stand back up and fight, i dont wish for anything, but them. there amazing and i just want them to know i do love them.

family.
its like a butterflys wings without them it cant fly.
without my family i cant ethier. there my hope.
bestfriend.
we will all leave but she always comes back, she is the trust that i need and the laugh that we all take for gratend
the boy who isnt the brother.
words dont explian how he makes me feel. he always understands. dont you dare leave me.
the others
they will leave some will come back but other wont, but while there here i am still smiling.

i can feel his heart beat.

I saw you talking on the phone
I know that you are not alone
But you steal my heart away
Yeah you steal my heart away

You’re acting like you’re on your own
But I saw you standing with a girl
Stop tryn’ to steal my heart away,
Stop tryn’ to steal my heart away

I don’t know where we going
I don’t know who we are

I can feel your heartbeat x2
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Feel your heartbeat
She said
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat

Maybe it’s the way you move
You got me dreaming like a fool
That I can steal your heart away
I can steal your heart away

No matter what it is you think
I’m not the kind of girl you think
And give my heart away
Stop tryin’ steal my heart away

I don’t know where we going
I don’t know who we are

I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat
She said
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Stop stealing my heart away x3
You’re stealing my heart away

I don’t know where we going
I don’t know who we are
Feels like we are flowing
High above the stars, the stars, the stars, the stars

I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat

Stop stealing my heart away
Talk to me girl
Stop stealing my heart away
Give it to me boy
Stop stealing my heart away
Say it to me girl
You’re stealing my heart away

Stop stealing my heart away x3
Your heartbeat.

yeah i love him... he gives me hope.

free hugs. because i need one.

well everything falls apart.. everythings come to an end. a good song finishes. a bestfriend lost. boyfriend gone. family apart.. i am always alone in my sadness, untill i choose to be alone in happyness, but i ask my self everyday, can i be happy without one to share my happyness with?? i guess ill ask that qestion everyday until i have someone to share it with. but then they will be lost,gone, part from me agian right. so i guess i will always be alone in whatever emotion i have... free hugs.. i think i need one

stay with me, hold me when i cry. then leave me to be free in my tears. to learn that i will always be alone. but i will have the power to hold my own. while you hold her.i am alone always and forever, and i am no longer fear it. because of you.
worthless to everyone. priceless to myself.

yesterday, amazing seen everyone who matters :) you make me feel worthless and they make me feel price less <3

i hate how you cant stand up for me, i would jump in front of a train to save your life, and you cant even say hello when your with her... i cant take it anymore, we are growing apart, i just dont think you care... i hate this feeling,. i hate how you make me feel.i feel so alone because of you. i wish someone could unstand...

It is yet all the failures, which rise up and show the world what true success is. For being failed and then for coming to great achievements from one journey which one takes with many setbacks, to make them ruthless and strong. For it’s the failures, which make this world turn around and them it leave sunned. For their journey was not easy, but when they world said you can’t, they look it in the eye and say I can I will, for I am strong and ruthless, this world will be my oyster, weather it choose to be, or not, for you fail me, but in my heart I shall never quit, making me the true success and you failure.. i failed my exam todayy, but i wrote this..

so today i worked out that most of my old friends were bitchs that didnt really care if i got hurt or not.. i also work out how to make a blog >< thanks to caitlin :p
i think i am going to like it alot! <3

wooo i worked it.. must say i very happy that i only took me, a hour :) my frist follwer is caitlin! agian with the woooooing WOOOO :D

well this was confusing...